Tuesday, September 08, 2009 9:48 PM

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Tuesday, July 28, 2009 11:47 AM

Currently, i'm in economics class. its killing me. I'm so distracted. yawns.

i tried updating last week but blogger died on me the other day when i typed my post. hahaha! Lousyyyy. hmm, last week was like a blast. Dinner cum cam whoring with usual people at woodlands on wed. It was a dress up to school day, celebrate Racial Harmony. (: As for friday, joined the boys for movie. Boring movie though. Thanks for the beautiful weeek, my friends.

Things are going well, i think. I'm really not sure laaaa. Whatever it is, i'm going to keeep strong and work things out. (: buggger, thanks for being honest ytd. And shihui thanks for the call the other day. I miss you laaa.

Okayy, its break nowww! to be continued.

Sunday, July 19, 2009 12:56 PM

after trying to upload the pictures from yesterday outing for three times, and yet still failed. I GAVE UP ON IT! annoyinggg. Oh well. so what happened yesterday?

I went cycling from changi beach to ECP. I think i covered almost more than 12km? My legs are still wobbly. ): aching the whole night and up till now. There was 9 of us embarking on this journey. Each of our silly antics made the whole outing full of fun joy and laughter. I love FJL! okayy, i want more of such things but maybe not too much since A's is like 115 days away. Come to think of it, I'M SO DEAD!

During GP, we did this activity which kind of wake us up. Procrastinating, have always been a part of me. But when yongkit shared her reflection with the class, it kind of hit me hard. Failing, not preparing for exams and feeling remorseful have been constantly happening in all my exams in MI. So why am i not doing anything when A's is getting nearer and deep down, i just dont want such remorseful feeling when i get results next year. My parents, grandparents and whole family is putting so much hopes for it. I dont want to be so cruel to break their heart and hopes for me. But till now, i'm STILL procrastinating. I neeeed motivation! pushhhh me! pft.

I've wasted half a day slacking. ): shucks, i'm just so lazy to mug and i just oh-so-distracted. Push that aside because i came here to blog and not whine or complain. So anyway, i've watch harry potter with bestfriend. Despite the different views we have, culture and religion, its surprising that this friendship have went so far. 5-6 years and its still going strong. We've may not been there much for each other like physically but deep down we know how much we mean for each other, yeah? Thanks for being there for me all this years, winnie. There are irreplaceable. Harry potter, isnt much as i expected. There wasnt much of actions and all. But it was funny though. Overall, i'm only rating it 3/5. Transformers was way better and worth watch it twice ? (i miss bugger. ):)

hmm, i've been spending quite alot that i'm like very badly broke now. hahaah. But not much of a regret do i feel. Heheh. The money was worth spending for and the time with friends, especially with shihui, were also irresplaceable. Shihui, i want spend more lovely time with youuu. Cam-whoring is our hobby and wallpaper-ing it makes it more amusing. hahahah. Too bad, i cant go holiday with friends much. If not, it would really be nice spending holidays with you or winnie. (: bestest of all best! oh, farisha! I misss you monster. We've not beeen talking/sms-ing much. ): boooo. You're probably busy and so am i.

Bugger, i dont know why but i do feel alittle upset when you text me "dont text me till end of next week!" gosh. Its been a week and there's like a week more to go. pft. I dont know why but i probably deserve it. doinks.
You, probably by now everyone would be wondering what happened to us? Geee, i'm clueless to answer them too. As days go on, i'm getting use to school life without you around. I admit, at times, it feels so terrible deep inside but i just keep strong and push the feeling aside. Like you say, its for my own goood. Finally, i've told my mum abt us. And, i'm slowly learning to accept it. Give me time and i'm sure you'll be just a memory. I never want to be in between you and her.

I think i neeed changes? Bangs on me, thats terrible. (everyone says so!) geee, i dont know. I just cant find a new look for myself now. I neeed new clothes, new look and new self. Erm, the blogskin needs a change too! I'm thinking of joining twitters? -.- (would i have the time to update or would i be so hardworking on updating?) Mummy, i want get a new digital camera and a DSL camera tooo? hahaha, she'll probably skin me alive if i say that to her. I want learn photographyyy.

wow, i've been blogging using hp and its just way too long and no pictures tooo. I'll probably add pictures tonight and change blogskin when i found a nice one later. Today is sunday and tmr is mondayy, oh mann! There goes the looong 1 lesson - 4 period timetable. (ihateitmuchh). Okay, got to message the three girls that they are tagged on my blog (: hehehe. bye. <3

Saturday, July 11, 2009 12:08 AM

what would you do when you feel so down and lousy abt yourself?

i really feel like crying but i just cant anymore. too much tears that i've shed for you. how much more must i go through? All this while, too much emotional breakdowns you've given me. its seems never ending. probably, i've myself to blame. friends repeatedly told me, let it go. i did learn to but i keep falling back.

selfishness, sensitive, liar, control freak and many more. is that all that you see in me? after so much i gave in for us, this is what you see in me? no matter how hard i tried, this is me in you? ): it really breaks my heart when you say all this. like i say, there's probably never us in the first place. Maybe right from the beginning, it was just our mistake.

dear god, i'm letting this person go. i honestly believe in him, but i cant go on this way. i want that life back, the happy life and never did i cry for anyone myself. i dont want to feeel this pathetic anymore. i need changes.


shagged.

Thursday, July 09, 2009 12:39 AM

eew, see how dusty this blog can be? oh well, readers better thank shihui for influencing me to blog again. (: awwwww! but anyway, not many actually read my blog so big deal. see the pathetic tagboard, flooded by the advertisement.

anyway, prelim 1 is soooon going to be over. like finally! but then again, i didnt do much preparation so practically its screwed :S . thats for playing way tooo much during the recent holidays. somehow, i dont feel much regrets cause most of the time was used to keep up with friends and do many fun stuff together.

MAHANA! omg, finally we met up for a movie and also cycling. shihui and me have been spending loads of time together. oh, i love that silly little girl who is on my hp wallpaper. -.- almost every week we meet up, but you know what? laughter and blur-ness is endless being with her. oh, she my new BBFF ( blur best friends forever ) including elijah :> geee.

oh, i must add this in this post. KAK HAJAR, my faraway cousin came to Singapore for a visit. its super rare so i decided to commit my days just to accompany her espcially when i have many days of extra holiday (actually is study break). oh well, the three full day was great as we did many activities together such as cycling, paintball and many more. oh god, i'm missing her already. you know what? i'm determined to save up next year and work work work to earn money and visit her at germany when she starts work this coming month. OMG! yes, anyone wants to join me? shihui!

okay, i think i'm abit to lazy to go on now. pictures? check out on my facebook, some are tagged there and some are in the albums. silly~ (: i'll update soooon. promise.