i love you much but,
i realised you can never be mine.
Friday, December 19, 2008 11:25 PM


i've been away from Singapore for a week already. friends & love ones have been asking me to update my super super duper dusty blog. & so, here i am (: .



hey, holidays have been quite okay. & the pictures show it all that i'm having fun being away from Singapore and all the problem stress and heartaches. There's nothing more that i want.
okay, shopping shoping shopping is all i have been doing. Feeding myself with great food like Subways, TGIFriday's, Baskin Robins and many more.

despite being away from Singapore, i tried being in touch with a few friends through MSN. yups (: especially, boyfriendku. HAHAH. okay, you guys must be curious who. its just this silly thing between me & my friend . gee, i miss my friends. oh , did i tell you winnie will be in KL too tmr ? hopefully, i'll get to meet her for shopping or something.
my mummy&daddy will be here tmr morning. i cant wait for their arrival.i swear i miss them alot!

anyway, i miss the makciks & the boys too. i miss MONSTER&herfriends. i miss my family. i miss every single thing in Singapore. i miss boyfriend too(: gee, i cant wait to have dates with the MAHANA, boyfriend, Zulaishah, Makciks, Aisyah&KakAini, Huixian, Girlfriends, Winnie, and the 3boys(:. most looking forward to is MAHANA chalet,my movie date&MasjidDarulMakmur's youth BBQ. hehehe.

MONSTER, its a few more days to your birthday. i know you're going to a blast with the SuperGFS and your cousins since they're in town. we've got to meet up once i reach SG alright?! thats a deal(: i miss you, and do take care.

Aishah, we've got lots to tell each other. okay. MAKCIKS! pls make a date & no more bubbles before i really kill you one by one mannn! pft. REDZWAN, you're not invited to join us though. but you can try planning one which involves us , rudin & syed of course (: & dont be surprise if syed join alright?!

boyfriendboyfriend, i doubt you're going to read this. but i want to say thanks for always being here for me (: imissyou!take care,boyfriend!

Dear Allah, give me strength to pull this through. Only you know the motive of this holiday trip of mine so give me that strength so that i can come back being that girl as happy as anything & not affected by him anymore. enough of the sacrificings, insults and sadness that he has given me. Allow me to only bring the happiness that he had showered me before. Allah, let my mind keep playing the beautiful memories of ours in my dreams. & often remind me to pray for his happiness. Dearest Allah, provide him with everything is needed for him to achieve happiness. promise me, you'll protect him from being harmed.



the girl who learnt


Atikahh
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.


thankyou loads


Like this, yes:D

he held her hands.
she wished he was hers as they interlocked their fingers.
she kept believing in miracle.
too bad, what she thought it was her's, turns out to be someone else's.
she's feeling lost when she in his arms.


screamoutLOUD





you need not be mine, but just by my side would do me good .