i love you much but,
i realised you can never be mine.
Sunday, January 25, 2009 4:28 PM


friday
cny celebration was awasteoftimeconcert. BUT classmates made it a better one. i brought sandwiches for the class & it took like ten minutes & its all gone. (: yeahh! after cny , catched up with zahura while waiting for Aishah. the guys are freaking annoying. they didnt even call us or whatsoever just because they had some plans in mind. pffft! ( tak pe tak pe, just dont find me when only you need me eh! ) After Aishah was done, we tagged along with Fatin, Fitz and Zai. they accompanied me buy mummy's lunch before going seperate ways.

Went home early, ironed clothes, accompanied mum for lunch, showered and get dressed up to meet BFF! (: yes yes, i went to meet bff! okay, as usual, i'm the one late! he simply love annoying me to be there faster faster. pffffffffffft! the actual plan was to catch a movie but time was just too short. i had to accompany granny for her dinner at 5.30pm. so we just went for a drink at starbucks and accompanied my granny. bff was being so funny & even granny had fun laughing at him (: thanks, bff for making a better day for us.
(hey bff, i finally found out about your secret! HAHAHA! naughty you doing such things.)

left the hospital early to meet up with winnie. okay, winnie's friends have been talking about me pangsehing her lots of times. but do understand, most of the time is school or family ): but yeah. I DID MAKE IT THAT DAY! so, we walked the whole far east plaza finding the perfect place for her to do up her nails. thank god, she was quite satisfied with her done up nails. (: if not, her blabbering begins tooo.being tired with the crowd, we decided to just have our lunch at AMK. yups. the day ended simple & sweet for me. i want more of it next time.
having to know winnie is leaving in like a month time, i feel very very sad! i dont know. i feel that it will feel empty. 6 months of her being away. ):

anyway, i skipped usrah for like twice already! Wak says the attendance was ): HAHA. but he went for it though (: oh well. i'll go next week? i try(:

saturday
had my MOB tuition at SMU. it was great and a very insightful one too. after tuition, had DIBCamp meeting. they were very very late! thanks to KHAIRULDIN ANSARI ( WAK ) .pffffffffffffffffft! while waiting for them , i had a call from you & it triggers everything again. put that aside, meeting was a-okayyy! (:

anyway, granny is discharged! ALHAMDULILLAH! (: and family and cousins are like visiting her here, my house! i love i love(:

you, everything that happened last year kept playing in my mind & i'm sure its something i realy really miss most now. i dont care if people say i'm a third party . i dont care how much you've hurt me so far. cause i do know you're one of a kind that i wouldnt want to lose be it as a guy i love or as a friend of mine. you're always a part of me , i've told you so .

from mangkok, :
"yes, you're not that pretty. But you;re pretty enough to make me melt like a cheese on a hot pan. Yes, all guys love seeing pretty girls, bt they are just pleasure. Not every pretty girls are meant to be treasured unlike you. For me, i'm not that manly to be your man.Haha. really. cos i know i'm not that goodlooking. what i mean manly is,what do i have now? that am i going to feed you if you were to become my wife?"
okay, i dont know how to reply you. but yeah, i'm sorry that my laptop was being a bitched that i couldnt go online for you yesterday. & i'm awaiting for your message since just now. but yeah. we'll chat tonight (:

its silly reminiscing a puppy love. seriously, it's just toooo cute! HAHAH. Al-hafiz, thats his name. you know, up till now i really love his name. oh well, Wak knows him & he went to ask him about me. okay! he's answer was silly. ' Aku kenal la! dulu dier bagi aku yoyo for present ahh! ' (english translation : i know her. Last time, she gave me a yoyo as a present) OMG! can you imagine, he actually remember it. the whole night i was smiling & laughing at it & at the same time think about how silly it was back in those days. HAHAH! (: it would be great if i would be able to bump into him someday (:



the girl who learnt


Atikahh
there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.


thankyou loads


Like this, yes:D

he held her hands.
she wished he was hers as they interlocked their fingers.
she kept believing in miracle.
too bad, what she thought it was her's, turns out to be someone else's.
she's feeling lost when she in his arms.


screamoutLOUD





you need not be mine, but just by my side would do me good .