Tuesday, March 10, 2009 10:36 PM

dear god, i beg you to shower me with strength. keep me close to you & protect me from any harm or being hurt. i dont know if what i'm doing is right. i'm all alone now, so all i have now is just you, god! i've faith in you just like how you have faith in me. everyone expects the best from me but i'm a human with feelings too. & human beings bound to make mistakes, no exceptions for me. i'm learning , i'm trying to make things right but slowly i'm beginning to give up. every thing i do are all mistakes. i'm scared to face the reality. am i really living in my own world of fantasy? it really sadden me knowing the truth, finally. we've been drifting so apart that i dont know who you are & who i really am in you. you been the one closest to me should know what i've been through but i guess i was wrong. it doesnt matter how others think of me but it matters alot how you think of me. friends are leaving me one by one, i dont know if i'm strong enough. its been a really rough week for me. oh god, all i want is to treasure every moment i'm left with. i'm not making it sound as if its the end of the world but i'm really scared. hopefully, things will go smoothly like how it use to be. its not me being the one crying & tearing. god, i'm begging you let go of me from this misery that i'm in. i'm begging you, god!

favourite, i'm sorry ):