❤ Atikahh

2009-09-08T21:48:00.002+08:00

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2009-07-28T11:47:00.002+08:00

Currently, i'm in economics class. its killing me. I'm so distracted. yawns.

i tried updating last week but blogger died on me the other day when i typed my post. hahaha! Lousyyyy. hmm, last week was like a blast. Dinner cum cam whoring with usual people at woodlands on wed. It was a dress up to school day, celebrate Racial Harmony. (: As for friday, joined the boys for movie. Boring movie though. Thanks for the beautiful weeek, my friends.

Things are going well, i think. I'm really not sure laaaa. Whatever it is, i'm going to keeep strong and work things out. (: buggger, thanks for being honest ytd. And shihui thanks for the call the other day. I miss you laaa.

Okayy, its break nowww! to be continued.

2009-07-19T12:56:00.003+08:00

after trying to upload the pictures from yesterday outing for three times, and yet still failed. I GAVE UP ON IT! annoyinggg. Oh well. so what happened yesterday?

I went cycling from changi beach to ECP. I think i covered almost more than 12km? My legs are still wobbly. ): aching the whole night and up till now. There was 9 of us embarking on this journey. Each of our silly antics made the whole outing full of fun joy and laughter. I love FJL! okayy, i want more of such things but maybe not too much since A's is like 115 days away. Come to think of it, I'M SO DEAD!

During GP, we did this activity which kind of wake us up. Procrastinating, have always been a part of me. But when yongkit shared her reflection with the class, it kind of hit me hard. Failing, not preparing for exams and feeling remorseful have been constantly happening in all my exams in MI. So why am i not doing anything when A's is getting nearer and deep down, i just dont want such remorseful feeling when i get results next year. My parents, grandparents and whole family is putting so much hopes for it. I dont want to be so cruel to break their heart and hopes for me. But till now, i'm STILL procrastinating. I neeeed motivation! pushhhh me! pft.

I've wasted half a day slacking. ): shucks, i'm just so lazy to mug and i just oh-so-distracted. Push that aside because i came here to blog and not whine or complain. So anyway, i've watch harry potter with bestfriend. Despite the different views we have, culture and religion, its surprising that this friendship have went so far. 5-6 years and its still going strong. We've may not been there much for each other like physically but deep down we know how much we mean for each other, yeah? Thanks for being there for me all this years, winnie. There are irreplaceable. Harry potter, isnt much as i expected. There wasnt much of actions and all. But it was funny though. Overall, i'm only rating it 3/5. Transformers was way better and worth watch it twice ? (i miss bugger. ):)

hmm, i've been spending quite alot that i'm like very badly broke now. hahaah. But not much of a regret do i feel. Heheh. The money was worth spending for and the time with friends, especially with shihui, were also irresplaceable. Shihui, i want spend more lovely time with youuu. Cam-whoring is our hobby and wallpaper-ing it makes it more amusing. hahahah. Too bad, i cant go holiday with friends much. If not, it would really be nice spending holidays with you or winnie. (: bestest of all best! oh, farisha! I misss you monster. We've not beeen talking/sms-ing much. ): boooo. You're probably busy and so am i.

Bugger, i dont know why but i do feel alittle upset when you text me "dont text me till end of next week!" gosh. Its been a week and there's like a week more to go. pft. I dont know why but i probably deserve it. doinks.
You, probably by now everyone would be wondering what happened to us? Geee, i'm clueless to answer them too. As days go on, i'm getting use to school life without you around. I admit, at times, it feels so terrible deep inside but i just keep strong and push the feeling aside. Like you say, its for my own goood. Finally, i've told my mum abt us. And, i'm slowly learning to accept it. Give me time and i'm sure you'll be just a memory. I never want to be in between you and her.

I think i neeed changes? Bangs on me, thats terrible. (everyone says so!) geee, i dont know. I just cant find a new look for myself now. I neeed new clothes, new look and new self. Erm, the blogskin needs a change too! I'm thinking of joining twitters? -.- (would i have the time to update or would i be so hardworking on updating?) Mummy, i want get a new digital camera and a DSL camera tooo? hahaha, she'll probably skin me alive if i say that to her. I want learn photographyyy.

wow, i've been blogging using hp and its just way too long and no pictures tooo. I'll probably add pictures tonight and change blogskin when i found a nice one later. Today is sunday and tmr is mondayy, oh mann! There goes the looong 1 lesson - 4 period timetable. (ihateitmuchh). Okay, got to message the three girls that they are tagged on my blog (: hehehe. bye. <3

2009-07-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

what would you do when you feel so down and lousy abt yourself?

i really feel like crying but i just cant anymore. too much tears that i've shed for you. how much more must i go through? All this while, too much emotional breakdowns you've given me. its seems never ending. probably, i've myself to blame. friends repeatedly told me, let it go. i did learn to but i keep falling back.

selfishness, sensitive, liar, control freak and many more. is that all that you see in me? after so much i gave in for us, this is what you see in me? no matter how hard i tried, this is me in you? ): it really breaks my heart when you say all this. like i say, there's probably never us in the first place. Maybe right from the beginning, it was just our mistake.

dear god, i'm letting this person go. i honestly believe in him, but i cant go on this way. i want that life back, the happy life and never did i cry for anyone myself. i dont want to feeel this pathetic anymore. i need changes.

shagged.

2009-07-09T00:39:00.003+08:00

eew, see how dusty this blog can be? oh well, readers better thank shihui for influencing me to blog again. (: awwwww! but anyway, not many actually read my blog so big deal. see the pathetic tagboard, flooded by the advertisement.

anyway, prelim 1 is soooon going to be over. like finally! but then again, i didnt do much preparation so practically its screwed :S . thats for playing way tooo much during the recent holidays. somehow, i dont feel much regrets cause most of the time was used to keep up with friends and do many fun stuff together.

MAHANA! omg, finally we met up for a movie and also cycling. shihui and me have been spending loads of time together. oh, i love that silly little girl who is on my hp wallpaper. -.- almost every week we meet up, but you know what? laughter and blur-ness is endless being with her. oh, she my new BBFF ( blur best friends forever ) including elijah :> geee.

oh, i must add this in this post. KAK HAJAR, my faraway cousin came to Singapore for a visit. its super rare so i decided to commit my days just to accompany her espcially when i have many days of extra holiday (actually is study break). oh well, the three full day was great as we did many activities together such as cycling, paintball and many more. oh god, i'm missing her already. you know what? i'm determined to save up next year and work work work to earn money and visit her at germany when she starts work this coming month. OMG! yes, anyone wants to join me? shihui!

okay, i think i'm abit to lazy to go on now. pictures? check out on my facebook, some are tagged there and some are in the albums. silly~ (: i'll update soooon. promise.

2009-05-08T22:50:00.003+08:00

Despite the boring time spent in school, they sums up my day (: .

it was super unplanned. the story goes like this...........
i had no activities after the pathetic day in school and was left alone in the school compound. feeling retarded, text Monster hoping to meet her up. Met the little kid at the bus stop. Asked nurulfatin along since she had nothing to do either. (: so off we went to fetch the teacher (inside joke) at her house. headed to town area for LJS & Raffles for Monster's mummy present & BnJ! (: F square (farisha&fatin) = FUN FUN FUN! thanks you little kiddo! i love every hour spent . hmm, sentosa? SET!? hehehehe. 18 May laaaa. near near my bdayyyy! and so thats the end of the story.

bump into LA working @ Gloria jean. not only her, MADELINE toooo! omg, i swear i miss the four Aunties (Joan, Kavitha, Jes & Mad). hope they'll get their uni each. yupps (: overall, i turns out to be a great day with usrah as an ending to the day.

2009-05-05T22:51:00.009+08:00

SUPER DUSTY & RUSTY BLOG! (: hahahah. almost two months not updated. my busy schedule explains it all. why not let the pictures explain everything to youuu .

A division (: MI TENNIS .

Student Leaders Investiture 2009

MONSTEROUS DAY (:

& this silly woman is back to colour my life. (: HAHAS.

Another reason to smile about.

YUPPS, there's more to come but i think you know the reason of me stopping here. I'm plain LAZY! hhehehe. its the end of my busy period. & it suppose to be my start of mugging period but i'm no where near the starting line. people , scold & push me for not studying! -so damn dead.

i'm so unaware of shihui's being away for a month plus ): i feel bad as a friend. but seeing her having fun at Dalian , i'm happy for here. On the other hand, i think this year 19th will be pathetic for me since she's away, i doubt there will be any surprises for me like the past two years ): booooooo! there's nothing for me to look forward for?

i feel like bitching about this particular girl but i think i'll be nice (: . bad Atikahhh! okay. i think i'm loving school much with friends around. but i think lesson is just killing me especially ECONOMICS! ): okay, the bed is calling me. tooodles.

2009-03-22T18:39:00.004+08:00

there is just too many things that have been happening in life that i've got no time for myself. all that i can say is 'i'm tired'. school holidays have been a very busy one , i must say & up till now books and assignments are not touched. & school is starting tmr, i mind you. ): holiday is just way too fast.

it started bad in the beginning but KakAini & Aisyah made the day a better one i must say. i do enjoy every moment spent with them (: (: . thaanks. Diploma is back haunting me with lessons & exams ): . As usual, i skipped diploma half way & enjoyed the rest of the day with zahura. talked about everything, okay almost everything. that was the only shopping time i had. the rest of the week was busy with TENNIS! obviously, i'm turning darker for each day i attend tennis. pft. despite being busy and tired for tennis, it didnt stop me from attending usrah & the Annual Night Cycling.

yes, Annual Night Cycling was the only event that i was looking forward to. It was organised by 5 Mosques which includes Darul Makmur. More friendships were tied upon cycling from As-syafaah (Sembawang) to East Coast Park. It was a tiring yet a fun experience. (: I hope i get to see some pictures sooon. so finally, the week has ended & school will resume tomorrow. honestly, i'm not prepared. hopefully, tomorrow would be a good start of the term.

Many have asked me alot about you. all i can say is that you've changed alot. ): i dont know who you are exactly now. you keep changing my friendship status. its freaking irritating. you take me so lightly when you dont need me but when you need me you call me your best girlfriend? its freaking nonsensical! who exactly am i to you? its really sad seeing you changed. and hearing stories about you from others. I kept myself strong as not to affect by it. why why must thing go this way? if i say i'm not worried of you, i'm deny much. i dont know, i truly think that you need some soul searching cause its studies you should be prioritising and not other things. i thought it was you that i'll be running the last lap of A level with but i guess i'm wrong ,looking at the situation now. I hope you'll find someone who will really push you to study besides 'idontwishtoname'. Goodluck my friend!

Anyway, stop labelling anyone as my bestfriend cause its annoying. ): I MISS WINNIEPENGYIYUN! yes, believe it or not. i may not see her everyday despite her being in singapore but i do feel empty when i need someone to talk or sms to. faster come back luhhhhh! hmms, i hope you're doing well in suzhou. & & dont shop too much lahh. read your blog is all about shopping & someone ! LOL. oh well, do come back safely okay? (: i cant wait to see you back in singapore. besides winnie, i miss spending time with MONSTER!

"I remember when we kissed, I still feel it on my lips.
The time that you danced with me, with no music playing
I remember those simple things,I remember till I cry
but the one thing I wish I forget, the memories I want not forget is Goodbye"

thanks for every moment spent with you.

2009-03-10T22:36:00.002+08:00

dear god, i beg you to shower me with strength. keep me close to you & protect me from any harm or being hurt. i dont know if what i'm doing is right. i'm all alone now, so all i have now is just you, god! i've faith in you just like how you have faith in me. everyone expects the best from me but i'm a human with feelings too. & human beings bound to make mistakes, no exceptions for me. i'm learning , i'm trying to make things right but slowly i'm beginning to give up. every thing i do are all mistakes. i'm scared to face the reality. am i really living in my own world of fantasy? it really sadden me knowing the truth, finally. we've been drifting so apart that i dont know who you are & who i really am in you. you been the one closest to me should know what i've been through but i guess i was wrong. it doesnt matter how others think of me but it matters alot how you think of me. friends are leaving me one by one, i dont know if i'm strong enough. its been a really rough week for me. oh god, all i want is to treasure every moment i'm left with. i'm not making it sound as if its the end of the world but i'm really scared. hopefully, things will go smoothly like how it use to be. its not me being the one crying & tearing. god, i'm begging you let go of me from this misery that i'm in. i'm begging you, god!

favourite, i'm sorry ):

2009-03-04T20:19:00.001+08:00

i'm loss of words to explain everything that happened today. i feel like sleeping through the pain & not think about it. i dont wish to choose cause i dont wish to hurt anyone. all i wanted from you was to feel wanted, but all i get was __________ . * upsetting enough for the day. faster lets end this pathetic day.

So boy, I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Boy, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

2009-02-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

favourite & bff,

it hurts when you say oprah winfrey is nothing compared to her, angelina jolie. ): but i know she's way prettier & much better than me. thats why, i never blame her nor want to steal brad pitt from her. hais. yupps, but thanks for today. & of course, i'm always dumped. i know.

Atikah

2009-02-23T20:04:00.003+08:00

i know i'm not suppose to be here, but here i am (: . hehe. way tooo many things eversince the last day i updated this blog. time was spent with many great companies like girlfriends, MI peeps, Monster, Cheerleading, Usrah, Aisyah&Kak Aini, just tooo many to list.

14th - Vday & Abg Khaliq's birthday
16th - Ng Shihui's birthday
18th - Daddy's 50!
19th - KakAini's birthday
22nd - Kak Aisyah's birthday
24th - Hendra's birthday
26th - Grandaddy's birthday
28th - Bryan's birthday

just see, how many birthdays. OMG! thats not including those who i know in the MDM. hehehe. gosh! pls add no more. thats like pretty enough to burn holes in my pocket! anyway, i gave a sweet birthday surprise to KakAini & Aisyah on friday (: . i swear i miss them so much that i had to really make sure the surprise will go smoothly. i bought them helium balloons & also card. geee, i swear them love balloons. yups . i really thank god for presenting them in my life.

yesterday, was family lunch together at tanjong katong complex. (: the 7 cousins had fun ordering 7 main dishes & headed to town for Anderson's ice cream & starbucks. despite having exams today, i had a hell out fun yesterday. not a single notes or book was touched. hehehe. i love cousins(:

saturday, Y2A meeting. adding more workload on me. HELPPPPP! yeah, i'll have fun doing the noticeboard with dearest KakAisyahku(: they accompanied me at sembawang before heading for tuition at SMU. Monster accompanied me at tuition and we went town for awhile before going seperate ways. after which will be my secret (: hehehe.

its a secret, i wont tell.
a promise we keep & a secret we share.

2009-02-07T19:25:00.002+08:00

orientation didnt end the way i wanted. you knew it & you didnt do it. it really hurts me this time round. three orientations, never once we did it. it was the very last one & you just had to crush everything. ): nevertheless, you did manage to redeem yourself. i miss those times, really much! but things can never be the same. we'll just have to control our feelings to ourselves.

& now, you owe me 20.

syed,rudin&redzwan, my boys! thanks so much for the comfort. i really appreciate every single thing you did for me. ensuring i was okay (: . i really thank god for giving me you guys as my friends. syed, especially. THANKS! (: i needed that so muchh. thanks thanks. nothing can replace the comfort you guys gave me.

MangkokBFbugger, is back (: !

2009-02-04T20:28:00.003+08:00

things have changed. & its constantly changes. how close a friend ship can be & how its drifting apart. it saddens me alot thinking about it? but there's nothing much i can do ): i just got to be strong & hope other friendships will not be affected much, really. she may have found closer friends but thats not the reason to push others aside? nevertheless, many others are still being there for me.

HAFIZAH! (:

the girl i made friend with on the first day of school.
soon the friendship grow closer & much bonded.
not in the same class. but Malay was something to look forward for.
a girl who tolerate my nonsenses, loudness, crazyness and whatsoever-ness.
she never fail to put a smile on her face.
the one who makes other smile.
hafizah, i've something to tell you .
iloveyoureallymuch!
icantbeartofacetheemptinesswhenyou'reaway.
nevertheless, i'll keep praying for your success.
&we MUST always meet for dinner okayy(:
take care, my love.

things are so complicated that its getting out of control. mix feeling about everything. CONFUSED! - you're always the reason of it. ): i dont know! orientation feels different without you. & the others. oh well, i have to learn how to accept facts. yeah, long lasting you should be.
ilovethatcarreermindedboy!

mangkok, thanks for disappearing. its nice of you, damn it! pfft!

anewfoundfriend!(:

2009-01-29T23:28:00.002+08:00

As much as i want to move forward & get on with life, the more messed up i am. When can things ever go smoothly? despite us going seperate ways, we still cant communicate like old times (no arguements & scarcism). i doubt things will ever go well. what happen to promises of us being in each other forever, be it as a friend or that someone special? dear god, i pray to you to give me strengh to pull me through this rough journey that you've arranged for me.

put that aside, school work just keeps piling up and there doesnt seem to an end. everyday, its homework thats haunting me. really ): . nevertheless, A's been pushing me to study. & Mangkok have been nice to accompany for two consecutive days.

i need to break out from this shell that i'm trapped in. BADLY! i'm worrying about just too many things. ): HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

2009-01-26T00:55:00.002+08:00

dear god , i really dont want to let it go. he's just to precious. the impression he left him never changed even after so much hurt he inflicted to me. i want to remain in those memories. the exact same one, the happy ones. pls pls. i beg you, dear god! ): the tears just refuse to stop flowing. i miss him much.

2009-01-25T16:28:00.002+08:00

friday
cny celebration was awasteoftimeconcert. BUT classmates made it a better one. i brought sandwiches for the class & it took like ten minutes & its all gone. (: yeahh! after cny , catched up with zahura while waiting for Aishah. the guys are freaking annoying. they didnt even call us or whatsoever just because they had some plans in mind. pffft! ( tak pe tak pe, just dont find me when only you need me eh! ) After Aishah was done, we tagged along with Fatin, Fitz and Zai. they accompanied me buy mummy's lunch before going seperate ways.

Went home early, ironed clothes, accompanied mum for lunch, showered and get dressed up to meet BFF! (: yes yes, i went to meet bff! okay, as usual, i'm the one late! he simply love annoying me to be there faster faster. pffffffffffft! the actual plan was to catch a movie but time was just too short. i had to accompany granny for her dinner at 5.30pm. so we just went for a drink at starbucks and accompanied my granny. bff was being so funny & even granny had fun laughing at him (: thanks, bff for making a better day for us.
(hey bff, i finally found out about your secret! HAHAHA! naughty you doing such things.)

left the hospital early to meet up with winnie. okay, winnie's friends have been talking about me pangsehing her lots of times. but do understand, most of the time is school or family ): but yeah. I DID MAKE IT THAT DAY! so, we walked the whole far east plaza finding the perfect place for her to do up her nails. thank god, she was quite satisfied with her done up nails. (: if not, her blabbering begins tooo.being tired with the crowd, we decided to just have our lunch at AMK. yups. the day ended simple & sweet for me. i want more of it next time.
having to know winnie is leaving in like a month time, i feel very very sad! i dont know. i feel that it will feel empty. 6 months of her being away. ):

anyway, i skipped usrah for like twice already! Wak says the attendance was ): HAHA. but he went for it though (: oh well. i'll go next week? i try(:

saturday
had my MOB tuition at SMU. it was great and a very insightful one too. after tuition, had DIBCamp meeting. they were very very late! thanks to KHAIRULDIN ANSARI ( WAK ) .pffffffffffffffffft! while waiting for them , i had a call from you & it triggers everything again. put that aside, meeting was a-okayyy! (:

anyway, granny is discharged! ALHAMDULILLAH! (: and family and cousins are like visiting her here, my house! i love i love(:

you, everything that happened last year kept playing in my mind & i'm sure its something i realy really miss most now. i dont care if people say i'm a third party . i dont care how much you've hurt me so far. cause i do know you're one of a kind that i wouldnt want to lose be it as a guy i love or as a friend of mine. you're always a part of me , i've told you so .

from mangkok, :
"yes, you're not that pretty. But you;re pretty enough to make me melt like a cheese on a hot pan. Yes, all guys love seeing pretty girls, bt they are just pleasure. Not every pretty girls are meant to be treasured unlike you. For me, i'm not that manly to be your man.Haha. really. cos i know i'm not that goodlooking. what i mean manly is,what do i have now? that am i going to feed you if you were to become my wife?"
okay, i dont know how to reply you. but yeah, i'm sorry that my laptop was being a bitched that i couldnt go online for you yesterday. & i'm awaiting for your message since just now. but yeah. we'll chat tonight (:

its silly reminiscing a puppy love. seriously, it's just toooo cute! HAHAH. Al-hafiz, thats his name. you know, up till now i really love his name. oh well, Wak knows him & he went to ask him about me. okay! he's answer was silly. ' Aku kenal la! dulu dier bagi aku yoyo for present ahh! ' (english translation : i know her. Last time, she gave me a yoyo as a present) OMG! can you imagine, he actually remember it. the whole night i was smiling & laughing at it & at the same time think about how silly it was back in those days. HAHAH! (: it would be great if i would be able to bump into him someday (:

2009-01-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

she wish she had 19 star balloons for her birthday(:

school has started & is been so busy and tiring. everyday is either mentally or physically tired!but nevertheless, friends are the amazing motivating factor of schoool.(: 07B4 is as crazy as ever. hopefully, the class will strive hard together for A's.

Monster's bestfriend, thanks for listening to me silly story on fri(: it was great accompanying you. yeah, we'll strive hard for A's this year(: heheh. & i'll be your goody friend this year since your bestie & brothers have resigned from A's. Better pass common test & be the captaain for CCA. yeahyeah, & someone is so still possesive seeing me with you.

Alumni meeting turned out to be a day for us to meet up. I'm so happy that i met up with Winnie, Fish & Zhiwen. gee, i left like i'm in secondary school again. Mr kwek didnt even recognise me but Mr Gana DID! (: he will always do. i miss sec schoool so much. & guess what, my social cohesion marriage is still going on. ILY, hubby(:. HOPEFULLY, the Alumni Day will be a success so that i'll be able to camp in that school with them in June. lovesss(:

2009-01-12T22:38:00.004+08:00

she has been happy for the sunshines given in her life. thanks, my sunshines (:
its still him thats triggering every bit of my happiness.

2009-01-06T01:03:00.004+08:00

Dear Allah, i believe whatever happened today was for a reason. if it wasnt for it, i wouldnt have known that i'm still hurt and tearing over - . i kept thinking i've moved on but the fact is i'm just being too harsh to myself. I'm sorry, i've hurt you so badly. I was selfish to be ignoring your feelings just to recuperate my own feelings. trully, i didnt mean to do so. Allah would have his reasons for deciding that we were not meant to be. I have trust in him, so must you. We'll pull this through together, its for your love and her.

pls do know, i never fail to keep praying for you. just so you know, i'm still the girl you knew before who will always be there for you and loving you. keep that in mind. & your place in me and my memories can never be replaced by anyone. do know, you dont deserve to be hurt by anyone & whoever does will have to go through me first. thanks for being a part of me and always be. I may not be yours but i love you still. HAHA! & i will always do miss you, boy!

Dear God, if we were meant to be pls do arrange oour path smoothly to bring us back together. If not meant to be, pls allow him to still be in me and always be. but do help us in getting with life smoothly. I beg you , forgive me for my wrongdoings & show me the right way. Amin Amin .

2009-01-01T23:11:00.002+08:00

they are my 2008 & they will be my future too.
May 2009 bring closer bonds between us. thanks for being a part of my 2008.
as for you, you were the best part of my 2008!
click on the picture for a better view.

2008-12-31T22:06:00.005+08:00

a long waited outing finally did happen. want to know more details? read up their blogs because i'm plain lazy! (: here's the link,Hafizah & Redzwan ! as for the pictures, check is out at my Facebook . okay, only certain people are allowed to view it because there's ridiculous pictures. here's a sneak peak .

okay, it was very tough for me but i did it (: moving on slowly. accepting facts and small little obvious changes that he gave me. but boy, i do miss you still especially your laughter and voice. its addictive.

dear Allah, i thank you for giving me an opportunity to love him thoughout this whole year. since 2008 is coming to an in less than 2 hours, i guess i'll have to stop loving him too. Thanks for starting the year nicely with presenting him to my life & ending it nicely with this outing. May 2009 be a better year for me.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL(:

2008-12-29T00:26:00.004+08:00

firstly, SALAM AWAL MUHARRAM(:
for those Muslim who doesnt know, this is your new year. not on the 01/01/2008.

anyway, this two girls have abandoned me for the past two days. Atikah ucapkan TERIMAKASIH eh kakAini&Aisyah. (saying thanks)

27/12/2008 , a date that all youth of DM have been waiting for. BBQ! (: there were so much much foood. of course, i came early (thinking of helping) but turned out mostly were done. hmms, almost all the youth came. thank god, they didnt make me feel that lonely. but still, i would have much more fun if the two sisters were there. ):
anyway, W was being nice to cook for me, accompanied me & assuring that i'm home safely.

today being a good Muslim, i decided to go to mosque to help around since there will be many people coming for the syarahan & stuff. again, W wasted petrol just to get me strepsils thinking that i have sore throat. but i dont, only that my voice have yet to recover. ): again, W sent me to the bus stop to assure that i get home safely. I'm stubborn, refuses to ride bike. Like DUHS! anyway, not many youth came but i still had fun with those who came. closer ties were bond.

so, its Awal Muharram & its high time i really forget the past and get on with life. Dear Allah, it will be a tough year ahead. hence, i'm praying to you to give me strength to face challenges that you've pre-destined it for me. I beg for your forgiveness to all my sins that i've done. Sincerely, i seek your guidance in bringing me to the right path and always be close to you. Thanks Allah for giving me opportunities in helping out at the mosque, your home. Allow me to be a better person. Allah, pls do answers to my daily prayers. Amin Amin Amin .

anyway, been reading up friends blog. & everything is about BF! or dates with Boyfriends. i feel sad. dont ask why. just sad. okay, i dislike feeling so. okay, BF says in future we may be friends, lovers or just HiBye friends, but he needs someone to guide him when the time comes. guess what, i offered myself to guide him in being close to Allah. i know, he has that heart to change. thanks for being there last night for me (:

2008-12-25T14:17:00.001+08:00

and so, since Muslims dont celebrate christmas, we had a public holiday for free(: but this very christmas day was well spent with family, cousins & my love ones. yes, it was Abg Syafeeq's Engagement Ceremony. All the pretty ladies (cousins) were present, making the day a wonderful one. Alhamdulillah, the ceremony went smoothly.

we had bbq at night after settling the engagement ceremony. yes, i love bbq foood(: i had a fun day.

more to come tomorrow(:

anyway, more pictures on faceboook.

2008-12-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

YES, I'M FREAKING BACK IN SINGAPORE(:
yay, my friends are excited. but they just refuse to admit it ( hints; redzwan&zulaishah )
oh well, it feels so good to be back home. yes yes. okay, the last night was freaking awesome with cousins. thats why i love holidays with cousins around. we often chill till freaking late nights. guess what? we played blindmice in the hotel room. & we turned the whole room into a mess. oh, i even became damn high on that night. quoted from ira; Atikah itching to go clubbing.

i'll upload the picture sooon when i'm not lazy!

okay, i had to give mahana's chalet a miss since i reached home late yesterday.haiss! i was dying to meet them pls. i hope wish there will be another outing. anyway, pls refer to redzwan blog for more info on an stupid outing that i've to plan. SO NOW, I'M ON THE PHONE WITH REDZWAN & ZULAISHAH! pls freaking decide where to go.

anyway, HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MONSTERKU(: imissyouimissyou.
dear Allah, pls protect her from any harm and bless her with pure happiness & love. we'll celebrate your day sooooon. i cant wait pls.

replies to tag;
Hafizah, insyallah i'll recover sooon. i think time will recover everything for me. & may Allah bless his relationship. i believe that Allah has arranged a much better guy for me. & yes, i'll be smiling & gila-ing (:
Aishah, yes. i'm back. we've got a date this coming mon & wed.
Muthuuuu, imissyou!
Huixian, yeahyeah. tuesday, i cant wait to bitch with you about myself.
Elly, omg. we're going out on wednesday for picnic. & since you're loaded, you'll pay for pizza. i bet the others will agree to it.
Redzwan, yes ROCK LA! power kannnnnn?

2008-12-21T23:42:00.003+08:00

oh my, mummy has put a full stop tp my shopping ): . that means, i cant buy anymore things. but i think i had bought way too much things too. then again, there's no end to shopping for a girl. okay, mummy just cant stop wanting to eat subway. & i swear food republic here is OMG! ( i love it )

now, huixian is damn busy chatting with me. she's an ass. BUT i miss her much (: okay, i'm force to say 'i love huixian x100' so yeah.thats for you(: hmms, you better pass your driving when i get back if not there's no date for you. yeah, your girlfriend is damn evil.

anyway, boyfriend boyfriend! WHERE ARE YOU? i've been waiting for you to come online. geee, faster be back from your friend's house pls. imy!

yeah, i'll be back soon. in 2days time. wait for my arrival pls because there's just too many things to look forward for. MONSTER, your birthdayyyyy. (:

2008-12-19T23:25:00.003+08:00

i've been away from Singapore for a week already. friends & love ones have been asking me to update my super super duper dusty blog. & so, here i am (: .

hey, holidays have been quite okay. & the pictures show it all that i'm having fun being away from Singapore and all the problem stress and heartaches. There's nothing more that i want.
okay, shopping shoping shopping is all i have been doing. Feeding myself with great food like Subways, TGIFriday's, Baskin Robins and many more.

despite being away from Singapore, i tried being in touch with a few friends through MSN. yups (: especially, boyfriendku. HAHAH. okay, you guys must be curious who. its just this silly thing between me & my friend . gee, i miss my friends. oh , did i tell you winnie will be in KL too tmr ? hopefully, i'll get to meet her for shopping or something.
my mummy&daddy will be here tmr morning. i cant wait for their arrival.i swear i miss them alot!

anyway, i miss the makciks & the boys too. i miss MONSTER&herfriends. i miss my family. i miss every single thing in Singapore. i miss boyfriend too(: gee, i cant wait to have dates with the MAHANA, boyfriend, Zulaishah, Makciks, Aisyah&KakAini, Huixian, Girlfriends, Winnie, and the 3boys(:. most looking forward to is MAHANA chalet,my movie date&MasjidDarulMakmur's youth BBQ. hehehe.

MONSTER, its a few more days to your birthday. i know you're going to a blast with the SuperGFS and your cousins since they're in town. we've got to meet up once i reach SG alright?! thats a deal(: i miss you, and do take care.

Aishah, we've got lots to tell each other. okay. MAKCIKS! pls make a date & no more bubbles before i really kill you one by one mannn! pft. REDZWAN, you're not invited to join us though. but you can try planning one which involves us , rudin & syed of course (: & dont be surprise if syed join alright?!

boyfriendboyfriend, i doubt you're going to read this. but i want to say thanks for always being here for me (: imissyou!take care,boyfriend!

Dear Allah, give me strength to pull this through. Only you know the motive of this holiday trip of mine so give me that strength so that i can come back being that girl as happy as anything & not affected by him anymore. enough of the sacrificings, insults and sadness that he has given me. Allow me to only bring the happiness that he had showered me before. Allah, let my mind keep playing the beautiful memories of ours in my dreams. & often remind me to pray for his happiness. Dearest Allah, provide him with everything is needed for him to achieve happiness. promise me, you'll protect him from being harmed.

2008-11-08T21:26:00.002+08:00

i will not be updating this blog for quite sometime due some personal reasons. & i'm really not sure if i'm closing this blog. i'm still considering it. ): yups. one thing for sure, i need time alone without anyone interfering my life.

i never wanted things this way. in fact, i never blame you. if you've made things so much clearer for me, i wouldnt have fling around with him. i wish i could rewind time just to rearrange everything back properly. fate is indeed cruel to me.

LEAVE ME ALONE!

2008-10-08T22:03:00.009+08:00

firstly,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! (:

sorry, that i'm abit tooo slow. its because of my plain laziness and being busy lately causing this blog to be stagnant. yupps. sorry, readers especially my faithful friends reading this.

hari raya 2008 was not so significant? maybe not yet. looking forward to jalan raya (visitings) with friends.currently, isnt any planned yet excepted PAE Malay Village. oh well, i hope all the family & friends will celebrate this festive seasons with great memories to keep.

so thats Hari Raya for me. (: more to come , pls.

there's more pictures but i'm posting up selected ones only.

yesterday, the boys were being the best company on earth. rizal, redzwan and syed accompanied for dinner at newton circus suggested by rizal. i swear, i had lots of fun. laugh laugh laugh is all i did. they are the best company ever. (:

their company did bring fun , but you brought colours to it. no private time, but i did had fun.

finally, the makciks had sometime to spent together. i decided to join them since i didnt feel like going home too early? we went to lot1 & had lunch cum dinner at pizza hut. too bad, aishah was fasting. we'll get that keychain soon alright, fizah?! makciks, save money pls so we can get something more personalised & unique. thanks for ensuring i was okayy. seriously, you guys made the day abit better. thanks for the laughter.

credits to hafizahh (:

& we're not disgusting, mind you!

okayys, i've been playing way too much. someone push me to do intensive studies now. & PW is killing me, i swear it is. ): boooo, i hate exams.

but but but, i love shopping with winnie. i spent too much but i never regretted a single bit. infact, i totally want more shopping. too bad, i cant keep skipping school right? HAHAHS. thanks, winnie peng for that wonderful day. it was worth skipping school for. you'll be the bestest bestest of the bestest friend, so stop saying that you dont have friends! HAHAHAS.

okayys, thats all for now. before that, NUR RELIEANA RAMLEE , when is our sushi date? its because i love youuu. tell me before i really kiss you i tell you!

alright, goodbye everyone. happy waiting for the next post which is idontknowwhen & dontaskmewhen.

2008-09-26T20:56:00.003+08:00

i need ICE CREAM to cheer me up. & i guess a tub wont be enough because its so distracting that i'm going haywired thinking about it.

give me a break, give me a break because i so need it.

I'm wishing you were here

My weakness is my fear

& i did have a hell yeah of a time helping winnie. telling her stuff & recalling things and stuff. only she can make feel so retarded can i be. we've got to find time to go out again before your holidays end. && shihui came to find me ! i loveeee. (: they made my day a better one. thanks , my love.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, EEVANN SEAHH!

can you believe it ( i know you are going to say of course), i forget to wish him happy birthday. i feel so super bad because he was first to wish me happy birthday on 21/05. as usual, i was so blur thinking that today was 25th. sorry, eevann. i'll make it up to you. (: next year next year. if i dont call your goodfriend, the police to arrest me alright?

calling for all MAHANA, when can we celebrate his birthday along with mark's & nicholas's the upcoming one?

Anyway, i hope you had a great day yesterday for your birthday. i owe you a present! (: youuu laa, call you out refuse to go but wants to stay at home play game. wth! okayy, i'm so done with you. meeeet up sooon! cause i miss you! (:

2008-09-22T14:17:00.003+08:00

Featuring EevannSeahhh! -.-

give me a reason why why why why must MAHANA celebrates his birthday?

2008-09-19T14:38:00.005+08:00

to keep myself distracted, i was search high & low for a nice blogskin but have yet to find one that satisfy me. SHUT UP, AISHAH! i know you're going to say i'm damn fussy. tried afew but still not happy with it. so people, just hold on to this skin which requires you to refresh to read it.(:

just so you know, yesterday was spent with Monster searching for her daddy's birthday present. we had fun laughing and irritating each other. she's the sweetest irritator on earth. thanks, monster~!

must be wondering why i'm keeping myself distracted?
because, of some reasons. (: every single human being on earth, i'm calling upon you to help me forget this human being whom have affected me lately in many ways.
god, give me strength to go through this rough patch smoothly. deep down, i know i can do it because i have faith in myself. thank you god!

to you, i really dont wish to hurt you so stop pushing me about the past. dont dwell on it too long because i've totally gotten over you. (: help yourself by stop thinking about me. i swear it will help you. if only he could read this.

2008-09-16T20:35:00.010+08:00

For certain reasons, i'm going to privatise my blog sooon.

i might open to public, i may not! depending on situation.this is because i can't stand people reading my blog, making their own bloody assumptions & start spreading TOTALLYNOTTRUE rumours in schools. they are like the biggest losers on earth laaa. pft!

oh oh, some people just have no life. All they do is making people upset when they dont have anything to do with each other. losers , right?! oh mann. GET SOME LIFE PEOPLE!

eh woman, you wont be like me cause you're worst than me alright?! if you dont know the situation i'm in then dont assume as if i'm in the wrong or the losing side. LOSER!

credits to Siti Masnirahhh! (:
i'll send invitation to read my blog soon alright?!

omgomg, the Mahana are like outside now having fun while i'm stuck at home. damn, only god know how much i miss them ): . pls pls , make another outing. i'm begging here!
Atikah got to start hitting her books again. last paper - Accounts!

2008-09-12T23:21:00.004+08:00

More to come after promo's?
Malay Village - 22jun
Monster - ?
Makciks - ?
Relieana - ?
himhimhim - ?

booook me soooon. (: LOVESS.

i wanted to tell you about the lady in the train
i wanted to tell you about my geylang experience
i wanted to tell you about they calling me balding
i wanted to tell you so many many things but you didnt give me a chance to.
oh boy, why are you doing this to me?
what have i done this time round?
i'm feeling so upset about this & about the pictures you wont let me see.
oh god, pls give me some mercy and strengh to go through this.

2008-09-10T14:10:00.002+08:00

~~TRUST~~

that's how i feel. i'm upset over it.
i dont trust you nor do you trust me.
the closeness is gone that i can't feel it anymore.
i missed it.

2008-09-06T22:53:00.004+08:00

started the day feeling lazy and down. i felt upset cause i couldnt meet up with someone i miss most throughout this holidays. nevertherless, the makciks (hafizah&zulaishah) changed the day to a better one. thanks, girls! next time round, we'll have movie marathon at my house alright? maybe during the days after promo's, marking dayyy!~ (:

met up sadiqul & kakJu before making my way down to vivocity. the picture says it all.

birthday cake, birthday sabotage, stupid games, concentration & it all sums up to fun, laughter & joy. only cousins can give you such great time at vivo. (: i want more of such gatherings. LOVESS!
more pictures to come when Hawa sends it to me. wheees!

i've not been studying much but playing more like it.GOSHH!i'm so screwed for promotional examinations. BOOOO! ): whatever. i'll go study for economics now.

promised! - shopping date & hollandvillage soon after promotional examinations.
i can't wait for it.

2008-09-01T17:38:00.002+08:00

i was on a rough patch last week but people like monster, the makciks (hafizah, zulaishah, elly & pika), redzwan, rudin & syed were there for me. thanks a million, you guys. i dont know how would be able to repay you.LOVESSS! <3

things got better but it didnt last long. maybe good things were never meant to last long. oh well, it affected me much but i must must pick myself up quick as so not to affect my promotional exams. lost of momentum of studying but trying to pick it up againnn. HELPPPP!

too many things distracting me laaaa. ): i'm sick! can you imagine at the wrong time? ARGHHS. sleeeep is all i can do now. i so need that hug from my favourite bolster.plss.

studystudystudystudystudystudystudy, Atikahhh!
till the end of promo, will i then begin to update much often. PROMISE!

fishyElijah, be safe at England okayy. dont be naughty with the two other girls. wahahahs. later your wife will be so angry with youuuu! be back safe , hubby!

2008-08-24T21:50:00.003+08:00

1)The person who tagged you is:
Zulaishah.
2)Your relationship with her is:
Classmate cum Makciks.
3)Your 5 impression of her is:
Laughing Machine X5.
4)The most memorable thing she has done for you:
Cry on my shoulder during PAE orientation 2008, saying 'I MISS YOU!'
5)If she becomes your lover, you will:
I'll call her BF for help!
6)If she becomes your lover, things she will have to improve on will be:
Stop laughing like a pontianak.
7)If she becomes your enemy, the reason would be:
She not accepting BFF to be BF!
8)The most desired thing you want to do for her now is:
To study hard for Promos.
9)Your overall impression of her is:
Super Gullible.
10)How do you think people around you feel about you?
Whatever it is, i hope its nice.
11)The characteristics you love about yourself:
Loud, Talkative & Friendly.
12)On the contrary,the characteristics you hate about yourself:
Vulnerable
3)The most ideal person you want to be is:
Just be ME~
14)The people that care and like you, say something to them:
' i swear i'll treasure every single one of you ' <3

2008-08-23T22:46:00.002+08:00

Syed, Hafizah, Redzwan & Aishah. thanks for being there for me lately. especially syed whom have been constantly telling me things & reasons why i should wake up & realise things can never be on my side.

MONSTER! i want to thank you a million for every single thing. I think you're getting sick & tired of the same old thing. i promise, i'll get better in time. (: give me time. yupps.

study study study. no life! ): but i cant wait for everything to be over. there's so many things i want to do. pft. things like meeting NGSHIHUI, WINNIEPENG, GIRLFRIENDS, MAHANA! arghhhhhs.

hold on Atikah. less than a month more. (:

2008-08-16T19:18:00.003+08:00

she has stop believing in hopes of love.

its rubbish~!

2008-08-12T22:11:00.001+08:00

oh boy,
stay close , dont go.

like i say i'll update sooon. & finally, i have the urge to update this dusty blog.
I MISS MUMMY! <3
thanks people for trying to cheer me up. (:

oh well, i cant deny that i miss you so much. i'm still trying hard to adapt to the changes. many others have said they look cute together but too bad it was just a wishful thinking of theirs.i've stop believing & hoping that miracle would happen. no matter what, 1st August would still be that special day that i trully feel i'm special in you.too bad, i'm sharing that space with someone.

okay, i'm going to bed now.
monster, thanks for updating my ipod for me. loveeess! <3

2008-08-11T20:33:00.002+08:00

soon to be updated~

2008-07-25T10:46:00.002+08:00

most of the time were spent with you.
you've brought much joy to me this whole week.
i really wish things will always remain this way.
but maybe it's just a wishful thinking of mine.
thanks, boy!

SMILESSSS! (: (: (: (:

2008-07-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

they are the reason why i'm always retarded & silly.

he's tall & cute!
lets go swensens more often.

2008-07-19T15:16:00.002+08:00

on request of MISS ZULAISHAH, i'm updating.

mind you, this is out of my lazy-ness. be honoured!

results? dont talk about it because i dont see hope of getting promoted with such lousy results.i expected it. thats for not studying. haiss. thank god, i have many to be motivating me to be studying especially for my MOB. right, monster?!

lately, i've been distractred by many things thats upsetting me. friendships? maybe, i'm thinking too much. yups. its just me me me me?! i dont know.

other than that, something have been lingering on my mind lately. whatever monster, bff, winnie & others have said to me really knocked my head. i wish i was strong enough to really heed their advise. a loser like me still cant help herself. i hate myself for this. i wouldnt want things to turn out like how it did in the past. i find it hard to let go. ):

on the brighter side, i've made many new friends lately. thanks for the concern, you people! i really appreciate it. you've often made me smile.

&you,

thanks for making me smile alot lately. you know it! thanks for being there on thurs.

2008-07-08T17:38:00.000+08:00

Lately life isnt that great for me.
I've been super upset over something & someone just dont really care but instead chooses to feign ignorance to me.
LOUSY results jusy keep coming in.
I'm still in holiday mood & totally not prepared for school.

anyway, i knew my results would not be good.
should i quit council?! HAISS. i dont wish to but i have to prioritise my studies.
Promotion exams are like in two months time.
oh well, i've got to start mugging. MONSTER, you got to keep pushing me like how you did for my mid years.
YOU, help me in economics?! & push me to study pls. because you motivate me to studyy!

oh well, you've been so mean to me.
i'm nothing to you compared to youknowwho.

2008-07-05T21:08:00.002+08:00

it runs in the family (: .
NOZEEY family just love durians.

i felt like sleeping the whole day.

2008-07-04T23:05:00.003+08:00

the picture says it all! (:
THANKS MONSTER, for being there for me throughout the tough times that i went through.
you know, i know & we know.
i'll promise to be your swimming partner.
i'll promise to accompany you when bobo & sha is away for matches!

& yes, for the effort you've made to always assure that i'm okay, we'll have waffle treats soon.

i told you it was crashing me down.

2008-07-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

if i had a choice, i wouldnt want to see.
if i had a choice, i wouldnt want to hear.
if i had a choice, i wouldnt want to feel.
if i had a choice, i wouldnt want anything to do with you.

but i cant help it.
yes, i feel trap.
someone give me the keys to unlock myself.
i swear, i cant breathe.

every single one of you out there, stay away from me.
because i'm emotionally unsound!

2008-07-03T19:33:00.002+08:00

its the end its the end its the end. yayness! its the end of examinations.
they lost but i love their spirit. dont give up floorballers! (: GOOD GAME!

she said something to me. it kept knocking on my head.
i'm sorry! thats all i can say to you. all this while i kept having doubts on you & in fact always assuming. no wonder, you were angry with me. i wasnt appreciative before & now it comes crushing on me. SERVE YOU RIGHT, ATIKAHH!

2008-07-02T23:10:00.005+08:00

what have Atikahh been doing for the whole of today?
i've locked myself up in my room & mugging hard for accounting.
last paper tomorrow. *yay-ness. (:(:

fatboy made a deal with me.
if he fails POA, he'll be my maid for a week. & if he passes, i'll be his maid.
whoever gets the most no. of U's will be the maid of the month!
i'll swear you'll have to do my homework, cook breakfast for me & send me home for a week if you fail POA! (: yupps, i'm evil!

FLOORBALLERS are starting their A'div tmr! (:
Rizal, Redzwan, Syed, Herry, Dinesh, Joel, Shahidah and Bobo are those whom i know.
All the best, my friends! I'll be supporting you.

2008-07-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

its been two days of retardedly fun time with this monster! HAHAHS.
the mugging, laughing and everything.

yesterday was the best history ever on earth.
SHE STUDIED FOR HISTORY! (although she only bang on nationalism)
she made history agian today by bring notes to school for last minute reading before the paper itself. HAHAH!

& the trip to queensway with her & afiqah was super funny. inside joke.

MONSTER, more fun sooon okay?
fridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfridayfriday *chanting!

2008-06-28T23:40:00.003+08:00

After days of always hearing your voice or being close to me and suddenly you disappeared again today, i feel so lost. fatboy hasnt contacted me all day long.

last minute things do happens. yes, i met up with winnie. having me being lazy to shop around, we went for ice cream at ben&jerry and updating session. thats all for today. (: LOVES!

2008-06-27T23:30:00.001+08:00

EXAMS ARE KILLING ME!
managementofbusiness - super screwed
economics - i need a pass badly
principlesofaccounts - deprovement
mathematics - HELP!
malay - pls tell me i did well

okay, i revamped my pictures in friendster.

i'll appreciate much if taggers will leave their names for me to acknowledge them.
& be proud of your identity pls!

lastly, dont mess with the zohan wasnt that bad.yupps, i catched a movie to release stress due to the mid-years. (:

2008-06-25T15:37:00.001+08:00

i wouldnt mind taking those long bus journey with you because its significant. (:

2008-06-22T19:24:00.002+08:00

oh boy, again you take so long to return my calls. i'm upset. BOOO! whatever.
the plan to study was CANCELLED, thanks to fatboy again. geeee.
a whole time wasted at home playing games & entertaining my cousins and my little nephew.

i swear Muhammad Rifqi is cute and adorable. at the age of 1, he cant sit still and is so playful. he'll grab every single thing that he can. & he spilled two glass of water today. oh little one, you are so loveable.

tomorrow is Mid-Years. tell me about it because i'm so not prepared. HELP HELP! its management of business paper 1 & i hate it most. arghs. i must not flung my mid-years if i want to stay in MI.

2008-06-21T23:14:00.001+08:00

as early at 9am, fetched Grandparents & headed to Johore Bahru for a day trip entertainment. yupps, went for breakfast, Jaya Jusco, Lunch, Larkin, Giant.

thank god, there wasnt any traffic jam. finally, got home a 6pm.
okay, i was suppose to join bagedil for study at Changi Airport after that but apparently, bagedil didnt reply my phone calls. feeling upset and disappointed, i switched off my hp.

that didnt stop me from having fun. instead of studying i met the cousins at Vivo.
not wanting to quality time, we headed to marina square for ice-cream at Swensens. (:
i love the time spent with them. it keeps me distracted from all the things that i dont wish to think about. YES!~ thanks cousins for making a closure to holiday's fun a bomb.

i wish i could study with bagedil tomorrow. pls return my calls asap!

2008-06-20T23:49:00.003+08:00

PANTATSHINE HEREEEE ! (:

sunshine's lazy, super lazy please.
today teach us science proclaiming that
she was tired but still insisted having tuition!
( act yi ge -.- ) HEHE

after tuition, headed to popular at yishun.
caught up on the way ther &back :D
tsktsk. :/ was treated bubbleteaaaaa .
bought her stuff @ popular &
headed home after that. sweet 'nuff to
be accompanying me to wait for my bus! (;

left with footprints, pantatshineeeee *

2008-06-18T22:41:00.002+08:00

as she made her way home, she kept thinking and reminding herself where she really stands in him. slowly, she teared.

she needs REALITY CHECK! ):

someone pls tell her that he is a friend and can be nothing more.

2008-06-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

my teacher is handsome!
but i think he is getting fatter.
however, i still like. (: (: sweeets!

ok, i'm trying to understand econs. THANKS BAGEDIL!

2008-06-16T21:42:00.002+08:00

TOO BAD,
i didnt join them at sentosa.
Zulfifi was super late so didnt get to bicker with him ):
AtiQah wasnt able to make it.

still, i had fun playing murderer, happy family and bluff at Vivo's rooftop.
we'll meet up again soooooon alright? (okay, i wonder when will that be?)

you may think i backstab you but i didnt.
you may want to lie to me but i have to say that the truth will always be shown.
sorry, too bad i'm not your close friend.
stop copying my style & get your own style PLS.
have some character, pls. stupid!

i miss MONSTER! ): come back quick pls.

oh boy, i want to see youuuu sooooon too!
i want spent sometime with you laaaaa! yes, tmr you're MINE!

2008-06-15T21:19:00.002+08:00

i'm sure they had much fun as much as i did.
Geylang, Darul Arqam, Masjid Al-Mukminin, Science Centre & Railway Station.

come back to Singapore alright? we'll be your tour guide again.

i'm contemplating whether to go for tmr's PAE outing at Sentosa.
i'm still less than 1% on studies. HOW!?!

2008-06-14T01:12:00.001+08:00

yups, it said it all. (:

did voluntary work for the mosque by being tour guides to these people who are first timer in Singapore. they are students from Kelantan.

he calls me a BIMBO! wth.

2008-06-13T23:18:00.000+08:00

ben&jerry's will always be the place to spent with someone you wouldnt want to lose?
thanks winnie for the time spent.
yes! we did shopping & updating each other . i love how the time was spent.

i did more shopping with mummy after she end work.
so many things to get yet so little time. thanks, mummy!
more of such bonding session,pls! (sound more of shopping session, right?)

there is still alot more of shopping need to be done pls!

2008-06-12T22:39:00.003+08:00

RP has a special court for floorball. how coool!
yups, i made my way all the way to Republic Poly to support MI guys floorball team.
every score they made, you can see their smiles on their faces. RP was a strong opponent i have to say. WELL DONE, MI! (:

upon seeing you in pain, i felt sad.
i really wanted to approach you but something was stopping me. sorry,boy!

2008-06-11T22:56:00.003+08:00

I'll be sad having brother to be away from me for a 5days.
be safe & have fun at pahang alright, brother?! (:

swensens for dinner with the GFs.

thanks for the day,girlfriends.
more of this without you know who~ (:

the day started well with a call from him! thanks bagedil! (:

2008-06-11T00:09:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!

ouh, i'm on the phone with mr.anonymous (: my loveees!

2008-06-10T22:55:00.003+08:00

i've heard nothing from you the whole day.
thats why i kind of feel sad.

nonetheless,
BFF is back from japan. yes! i'll have company from now on.
& we've made a date to study by the beach sooon. i hope it will happen.

i screwed up my t9 CAT paper. sat by the window staring at the paper not knowing how to do at all.i'll have to retake & study harder this time round.

2008-06-08T12:55:00.001+08:00

Morning was Akad Nikah & Night was Dinner at Laguna Sari Restaurant.

2008-06-07T13:07:00.000+08:00

friend : " you came here with him? "
she nodded.
friend : " den now you going home alone? "
again, she nodded.
friend : " huh, you came here with him den you going home alone, so not nicee.... "
she wanted to cry but she hold back her tears.

she cried on her way home but she never regretted going.
oh boy, nice shot you've got there.

2008-06-06T20:00:00.004+08:00

oh boy,

where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?where were you when i needed you most?

i miss you much (:

2008-06-06T17:06:00.004+08:00

bestfriend texted me.

japan is an hour earlier.

japan is very very cold.

Atikahh has to take care of herself while bff is away.

bff must be back quick & safe.

2008-06-04T09:26:00.004+08:00

life been such a mess.

i screwed up my T6 CAT exam paper.

house is been so fucked up.

he's been distancing himself from me.

bff going to japan.

school is been a bitch.

revision is no where.

Atikahh hates her damn life now.

2008-05-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

i thank god for allowing me to see you today.

even though it was from a far, i feel contented enough.

the voice i missed, the scent i missed.

its you.

2008-05-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

MONSTER DAY OUT!~ (:

macdonalds, queensway-ed, ikea-ed, ben&jerry, towned.

a day appreciated.

ilovemonster! (:

2008-05-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

a little story to share :

he held her hand.

he didnt hold it tight.

she wanted to hold tight and never to let go.

but who is she to do it?

who is she exactly to him?

she know she's going to hurt herself more if she's continues to harbour feelings for him

but she still does it.

is he treating her well due to sympathy or the strong feelings?

isnt love just so blind?! HAHAHAHAHS. i find it hard to define being true to each other. (:

2008-05-21T21:34:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 18th Atikahh!

thanks to everyone who've made 21st May indeed a special one

shermin, rizal, winnie, eevann, ridzwan, shihui, mark, huixian, veron, songquan, zhengjie, hakim, farhan, huzaifah, zara, joan, hafizah, nicholas, raudha, relieana, weekiat, elijah, zhiwen, maohe, yanqing for the sweet birthday wish through messages. (: LOVESS!

the cupcakes was lovely.

hafizah, thanks for trying your best to lie but yeahh, i was still surprised by it.

zulaishah, elly, hafizah, afiqah, radin, redzwan, hafiz, rizal & sen. thanks for the cupcake & the present. i love the surprise.

thanks for those in school for the wishes. i felt like a superstar walking around having people wishing me happy birthday!

those whom i remember:

07B4,nabiha, relieana, rashid, hakim, ahmad, hafizuddin, rayson, sunil, kavita, farhaan, rudin, hendra, fuad and many many more. (:

special! :

thanks kakju for the special present & the free drinks.

thanks winnie for the hot present & the time spent. i love you loadss!

thanks shihui for the time spent at MINDS CAFE!

thanks MAHANA for the surprise. indeed you guys always make birthday indeed special.i'm glad this friendship is still going strong. (: stay happy as a group even though you have a gf, still must always join us. *hints :nicholas nahdingjie!

send me all the pics, okayys! (:

2008-05-20T22:25:00.001+08:00

disappointment.

you called me informing you couldnt make it.

i was very disappointed, i have to say.

oh well, you said you were looking forward to it.

yes, i was too.

2008-05-18T21:13:00.002+08:00

OKAYYYS! i shall be EGGCITED! (:

three more days & still counting down.

thanks HAHA !

2008-05-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

INGKAR

Di saat cinta tercipta

Semestinya aku merasa

Di kala hasrat mendalam

Semestinya aku berbalas

Dari hati kini kusadari

Tak semestinya aku berkasih

Jika hati tak dapat berbagi

Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam

Semestinya aku mencinta

Seharusnya aku menyayang

Oh maafkan jika

Semua ini yg kuberikan untukmu

Dari hati kini kusadari

Tak semestinya aku berkasih

Jika hati tak dapat berbagi

Baiknya rasa itu tersimpan dalam

your scent (:

2008-05-15T21:46:00.005+08:00

OMG! fishy getting me the gummy bear jelly beans from Marks & Spencer.

he's going to get it during the weekends & pass it to me on the train during the weekdays.

wheeeesss.you're just too sweeet for me. (:

anyway, tmr is GEEPEE paper1&2. boooo! i dont think i'll be able to make it through. but guess what? i made sandwiches for tomorrow.

Sports Night Meets is tomorrow tooo!

oh, is 6days to my legal age. ask me how i feel? idontknow either!

but i cant wait to meet up with Winnie, Mahana & Girlfriends. last year turning 17 was lovely. what about this year?! HAHAHHAS. loooking forward.

all i ever wish for my birthday would be to be able to walk with you enjoying the breeze or just sitting by you gazing the beautiful stars in the sky.will that ever come true? - your scent.

2008-05-13T21:34:00.002+08:00

WHY AM I TOO GOOD TO YOU?

tell me about it.
when your own friend tells me how he feels being a lamp-post.
F! he even saw you guys giving each other kisses & pecks.
maybe, i should just jump down for believing you?
ARGHHS.

i'm a bitch! so scruuum!

2008-05-11T22:27:00.006+08:00

i've been busy & lazy to update for the past one week. so sorry about it. but i'll highlight certain events thats been happening thoughout the week.

Dinner with Winnie Peng @ Seoul Garden.

it was awesome. we get to eat as slow as we want. cook for each other & talk about everything. yupps. we find it worth spending much amount of money for much amount of quality time together.

Cityhall-ed with Winnie, Shihui & Elijah.

thanks to the Iday briefing, i had to be late & had less time with them ): . stupidd. thank god they are nice people who are understanding enough for me.anyway, it was an awesome meeting. like a 16347823743508days of not seeing shihui! Even though it was short & sweet, but i was loving it muchh. oh, the teddy gummy they gave me was yummy. i wannnt more, pls. (fish, you should know what to do right?)

Technical Run & Tennis.

the technical run was so wastemytimeonly! geee, whatever. i was super hungrybecause i didnt had proper break nor lunch. a nice soul waited for me & we headed off for lunch&dinner at KFC.

went back to kakJu's house, got changed & off to Cdans for tennis. (:

Institute Day.

imagine having to report school at 7am! thank god daddy sent me to school. the whole thing went well i think. the food for us was not so bad. finally, GT is improving. the dance performance was awesome. (:

Ironman.

YES YES! i've watched it. superb laaaa. technology is super advanced plss. hahas. i'm impressed.

thanks to taklehdudukdiam person for the company. hopefully, you had a great time. i wandered around at toapayoh for awhile before heading off to woodlands to help out at Tok Sam's house. i did alittle bit & fell asleep on the couch. lazzzzyyy bummm & i was super tired.

maybe i shouldnt have love you.

it was my mistake that i've hurt myself.

move on girl & get some life.

yes, i need to screammmm!

2008-05-03T12:54:00.005+08:00

i neeed to start revising for T9 & T6 like soooon.

not only that, mid-years is like coming sooon too!

geee, i need to learn how to manage my time plss.

i just came back from schoool. YES! i attended CAT lesson okayy despite the track heats. (: wheees. but, i only attended for like 1hours plus only. left the class around 11 with zahura. HAHAH. the lecturer thought i was a new student because i've not been going for classes. -.-"

yesterday, Atikah was being a goody by attending her tennis training. i swear i need to get new school shoes & tennis shoes. fucking slippery siaaa & i almost fall upon doing running forehand.

after showering, ira called. there is simply no end in tennis. YUPPS, met ju & had dinner with her and HA. rayson joined us & off to cdans to meet the rest for more tennis. we love tennnis! (:

anyway, i need to get ready sooon if not i'll be late for the concert (play) at National Library Drama Centre. BROADWAY BENGS! (: hopefully, it will be a goood one because i paid $40 for it.

i'll be meeting winnie after that for some catching up.

" its very rare that you can go out, i of course MUST go! "

said winnie.

* i smiled to myself upon reading this. *

you are always busy with CCA. i wonder where i had that courage to ask you out. forget it, maybe i shall not ask you out anymore? this is the like idontknow how many times, you cant meet me.

2008-04-30T23:07:00.003+08:00

if only it was so beautiful like the stars in the sky.

but i'm afraid it isnt.

times & times again, you've hurt me.

this time round its so deep that you'll never gain my trust again.

in fact, it have shown me all.

i felt like i'm the foolish & stupidest person in this world to believe every single word of yours.

how naive can i be?!

friends ask me, am i okayy?

i always say i am.

only god knows how painful this journey is.

having to know that i've trusted the wrong person.

i simply cant forgive myself.

god, what have i done to deserve all this.

till when do i have to cry for the stupidest reason?

give me a breakkk.

let me be that little happy person that i've always wanted to be pls.

2008-04-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HUIXIAN! (:

no one can ever replace her.

who would be so sweet to come all the way to khatib just to meet me?

she's the best that you wouldnt want to lose.

you're finally legal.

i'll see youuu super sooon again .

sweeet18! (: LOVESSS.

2008-04-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

they made my day.

2008-04-27T20:46:00.004+08:00

A div is finally over! (:

23/04 - another match lost.

MJC 9-5 . goood match.

cousin, dont be sad.

retribution will come to these people. you know what i mean right?!

now, its all over!

i had fun watching soccer match on tuesday at MJC! even though they lost, their spirit was still strong. see them cheering for each other was cute. hahahs. thanks monster/muthu & bobo for inviting me to join you guys. i did had much fun with you guys.

lovess, thanks for the time spent at ben & jerry. i simply needed ice cream to make myself happier. its been so long we had our own time to spent with each other.like finalllly! it was worth skipping tennis training. sooon after that, i met winnie. it was last minute thing because i missed her & i didnt feel like going home. a short & sweet time spent with her. thanks bestfriend!

bestfriend Abdul was being such a sweetie to accompany me today to study at tpy since someone wasnt able to make it. thanks bestfriend. at least we did some of our assignment even though most of the time we were talking. dinner was donuts & a drink . (: i love having bff.

thats how my week was spent.

oh boy, at least you know how many times you've hurted me.

2008-04-19T14:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAN QING! (:

she's legal now. (:
may god bless you with happiness & lots of love.
we'll celebrate it soon with huixian's birthday alright?!
sweet 18!

sports heats was P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C!
the turn up was bad especailly for zircon & onyx.
i ran 60m & 4x100m (:
fast fast fast spriiinntts!

changed & off to Masjid Darul Makmur for a meeting.
for the first time, i'm volunteering myself to help out in a camp.
nice ppl & new friends.
i know i'll enjoy the camp with them .

it wasnt a nice happy talk.
but thanks for companying me through the night since i couldnt sleep.

2008-04-18T15:03:00.000+08:00

we lost PJC.
yes, we are upset.
but, we'll never give up.

tennis 'o8

my final match will be against meridian on wednesday at home ground! (:
be it playing with FAZ or HA, i'll try my best.
after that, i'll have to start mugging .

lovess,
it was disappointing that you didnt text me.
i shouldnt feel affected but i was.
neither did you call me during the night too.
oh boy, slowly you're just nothing.

tennis at CDANS was iwantmore!
ha, la, hawa, halifah, taha, ira, harun & brother.
lets have fun with tennis! (: wheees.

2008-04-16T20:10:00.012+08:00

A'division

first match against RJC!

Student Leaders Investiture

pictures says it all! (:

i'm lazy & tired. HAHAS.

i'll miss all my seniors in SC! the love & bond must never fade.

2008-04-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

replies to tags :

Syahira - hhehe. cheyy, i'm the malay rep sehh! i love how malay lessons are spent with you guys. (:

Avid reader (Ju) - erm, yeahh! ): but i had fun la. a short one though. i miss youuuu!

Stacey - OMG! i miss you like so muchh! Get the MAHANA to meet up pls. (: (: prettty plsss!

she's lazy to update. she's upset over something. she's tired. she's heartbroken.

i'm aint that 'special' friend anymore.

2008-04-06T21:54:00.002+08:00

1. A' div for tennis

2. Student Leaders Investitute

3. Preparation for Mid-Years

4. Catch up on my Studies

5. T9 & T6 CAT paper

6. PI for project work

OMG! so many things to do, so little time i have. if only, i had a clone to help me out.

obviously, i'm STRESSSED out!

Saturday's Rehearsal was a practical waste of time & i skipped CAT's lecture for it.

bluemonster, be strong alright?!

WE CAN DO IT! (:

i love the way i spent my day today.

madrasah & sleeep.

& i'm going to bed sooon.

back to school tmr ):

you're selfish.

2008-04-03T22:02:00.003+08:00

Thanks Relieana, Abdul, Ahmad & Hakim for the time spent at SAC and dinner. I had super fun time sharing & listening to lastest and hotest news in school. HAHA! & i've shared my deepest secret with them too. Bestfriend was shocked when i said a BAD word & Ahmad was shocked that i say something which sounded super dirty. HAHA! but whatever, i had fun time laughing.

Ahmad accompanied me home & we continued our talk for 30mins pluss.it was nice telling you everything. (: stop talking about me for now. pinky promise remember?!

today, i thought i was so over it but it seems that all this while i've been in denial. how dumb can i ever be. i didnt like the start of the day. i didnt like my second break. i didnt like the fact i was distracted during lessons. i didnt like having to face you, stupid PB! (only some ppl know who is it) all i need now is just assurance of every single thing. YES!

i've finally packed certain subject files of mine. i need to start concentrating on mid-years. its a M-U-S-T,must! anyway, this month's expenditure is so so high. i just burned 50 bucks on tennis skirt for A'div. grrrr! HELPHELP!

replies to tags :

Avid Reader (JU) : lols. island creamry was so iwanttogoagain kind of place. hahas. i went with someone who i shouldnt have went with. i know i'm STUPID!

syahira : oh my! thanks la ehh. thats so comforting la! i'm DEPRESSSED thanks to you now.

elijah : why everyone is using livejournal. i dont like. anyway, relinked!

Aishah : i've said i'm not having mood swings & its not your fault. its just something, my own reasons! stop thinking tooo much. SERIOUS!

phone calls isnt a routine anymore.

i miss those times.

2008-04-01T20:11:00.003+08:00

my friends thinks that i'm in depression just because i laugh all day. LOLS!

laughters are just there to hide my true self. ouh well, many things have been happening & i dont wish to elaborate. its suckyy. ):

last friday, i swear i had lots of fun with cousins during tennis. YUPPPS! for awhile, nothing was distracting from my mind. i love such funnns. weekends was not really goood.

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!
i got tricked by rizal in the morning.
eevann tried to trick me but didnt manage to. HAHAH!

& & i miss mahana so much. so guys, when are we meeting up?
make it SOOOOON alright?!

island creamy was LOVESS! i love the atmosphere only that there were too many people.
a day that i must remember. (: thanks for the day,lovesss!

replies to tags:
Juju - we went jaya jusco before checking in into hotel la deyyy.
Hawa - i've changed. more tennis,plsss!
Myra - i misss youuuu sooo toooo!
Avid Reader - I'VE UPDATED!

your smell lingers on me.

2008-03-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

its been a tiring week. SUPER TIRING. oh oh, bitchy week too. i swear i've been doing too much bitching. evil evil Atikah. finally, tomorrow is Friday! i've been much waiting for the day to come. so that i'll get my weekends. (:

still, weekend aint any break for me. how sad can it be? oh GOD, i so need a holiday break. i'm so sad that winnie's timetable doesnt suits mine. ): she ends early on tues & wed while i end super late. geeee! wait till A div is so over , you'll see me skip most tennis training just to meet her. trust my words. hahas.

oh boy, the truth is finally out. slowly, i'll let you go. for now, let go with the flow.

subconciously, you've got me hurt.

i need a soulmate.

2008-03-23T21:46:00.002+08:00

MALAM CEMERLANG

THE PUTERI PAN PACIFIC

JOHORE BAHRU

paternal family.

(see how wak ahim & wak senah smiles!)

the dinner was superb. i had super great time sitting with raudha & kak riyana.

performance was a-ok! GREAT JOB COUSINS! sorry Ira for destroying your face. isn't that bad huh?! anyway, rehearsal was sucky at a point of time but i felt good after telling her off! you know who! (: booooo!

the night lepak was short but great i guess. i was trying my best to prove Mamat that i wont be th first to fall asleep. but damn, i was super sleeepy though. however, raudha & zulaiha doze off first. (: the next day was roti prata, durian & nasi campur! HAHA! ouh, i had fun at Jaya Jusco. the cheese sausage was super huge & juicy. i like!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , Siti Hawa Hussin & Siti Hawa Hamzah!

MAY GOD ALWAYS BLESS YOU!

yes, my mum & my cousin have the same name & the same birthday. (: how cooool!

only god knows how much i missed you.

2008-03-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

CIP day was relatively okayyyyyy!

it wasnt that bad at first. not until that woman's house. grrrr. i dont wish to elaborate. just know that her house stink big time alright!(: after the whole thing, had a loooong walk with hendra & zulaishah for lunch at komala villas. they didnt know how to eat indian food besides roti prata. -_-" so i treated them for lunch.

in order to waste more time, me & zulaishah decided to follow hendra all the way home to fetch his stuff for his soccer match. we thought of watching soccer after that but changed of plans. we went to meet winnie instead. walked around hougang mall & guess who did we bumped into? EEVANN SEAH! hahahas.

followed winnie to city plaza for her shopping spree. GOSH, she sure did buy loads of things. it was fun bickering with her. i simply miss old time. i bet zulaishah had great time laughing at us. sometimes people do wonder how we became bestfriends?! HAHA! before heading home, had dinner at long john silver.

i simply love how my day was spent with two lovely girls! (:

tmr is the BIG day where by BIG BOSS is going to BOSS around. i hates!

- Auntie, you sucks!

cousins, lets have loads of fuuuunnn together! (: wheeees.

2008-03-18T18:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY

MAKCIK ZULAISHAH!

You've made life in MI different.

thanks for everything you've done for me.

we'll strive hard for our studies alright.

May your Mr.Right come sooon! (:

God Bless you with lots of love & care.

school have started. & its going to be a hectic life again. i've decided to join A'div & project work task have been given. Mid-years are waiting & so is CAT 6 & 9.

STRESSSSS! is all i can say.

i met up with winnie yesterday & managed to catch Step Up 2. super cooool pls. i love the dance. HOT! it was a short met up session, not much bitching but i still had great time. (:

we'll meet up real soon again alright?! LOVESS!

reply to tag :-

hawa - HAHAHS! i'm very very scared! (: we'll have fun on that day tgt.

things have not been very good. & tell me why do i miss you badly?

-the smell

2008-03-16T12:54:00.004+08:00

oh BOY, why am i feeling this way when i shouldnt?